Wednesday afternoons mean enjoying a hammerhead at Perk's and looking out into oblivion, only to be distracted by attractive passerbys. 

growing up

growing up scars you

it means having to accept things with no regret and learn not to feel

you become this giant tumor of everything that is bad and eventually harden into an unbreakable substance... because well, there's nothing left to break anyway. 

you find out that the things you care about will not necessarily make life better or easier or make life worthwhile, they simply just define life itself. 

growing up is just a montage of everything that's happened. it replays everything you've done and what everyone's done to you... and in the end it's all just painful. then you learn to accept that it's painful and you're not so bothered anymore. after all, what do others matter? there's only you. you die alone. i die alone. we all do. so what's the use? 

we grow up and learn to appreciate each other, but only because the relationships you make and all the pleasant memories are just fillers, meant to be comforting. but not permanently. everything is fickle.

yeah, i know. it's depressing. i'm the purest form of pessimism. 

image is truth, sound is fiction

you can fabricate lies with your words, but i've seen the truth in your eyes

l-o-v-e

I read a girl's blog today. She wonders why Asian couples last for so long. She speculates that it's because they can't get enough of one another, that they have some sort of secret. I don't think it's really a secret. Asian couples are boring, not dynamic. Asian couples tend to get too comfortable and content. It's not a bad thing, but it doesn't lead anywhere, it all just turns to compassion in the end. It becomes all about security rather than love. It's not that great love you used to imagine about for hours alone in your room as a little girl. 

As for me, I'm alright with turbulence. May there be more break ups coming my way. Break ups only teach us to love more strongly anyway. To love ourselves, to love others, and that special significant other.